Ropes.

I guess you could say I’m still learning the ropes of submission. This is all still very new to me, but I’m enjoying it tremendously. I’m eager to learn more, eager to become a better slave, and eager to serve my master.

Today, seeing as I had the day off work, and some pretty important days coming up toward the end of the week, I asked my Master to please give me task to do today. Some task that would provide me the distraction i need so much at this time. But most importantly, I wanted task that made me feel like the slut I am while I did them. Like his slut.

I knew he was busy so I waited patiently hoping he would have something for me to do. I wanted to feel his control, and I wanted to please him.

My master gave me 2 task. First, I was to take pictures while playing with myself in the kitchen. He wanted to see just how slutty I could be. The second task was to spend the remainder of the day bound. Wrist bound and ankles bound. Even a rope around my neck.

When I read the first task, I decided to have a little fun with it. Well more fun than I normally would have while playing with myself for him. I wanted to surprise him. I wanted to give him a little something extra, and I hoped he approved.

I found some lingerie and dressed up a bit, slipped on some thigh highs and a nightie and posed against the kitchen counters for him. I felt sexy, and I really hope he enjoys the pictures I took for him.

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I laid back on the cabinet and touched myself. Already worked up from posing, I’m rubbed myself gently at first and worked up to sliding a few fingers inside myself, it felt so good. I wasn’t given permission to cum so I had to stop before I got to close.

After getting so close to an orgasm and having I stop, I couldn’t think of a better way to cool myself off than to slide down over the kitchen sink and spray myself off with cold water. The sensation of cold was intense against my hot wet pussy. It was a distraction from the orgasm, but it also felt good. I turned the water a bit warmer and let the warm water pulse against my clit, it felt amazing. All I could do is lay there and squirm and moan. But I still didn’t allow myself to cum. When I couldn’t take any more. I got up to send the pictures I had taken to him, hoping he approved.

After the pictures were uploaded and emailed I proceeded to tie myself. I struggle with knots, but I was able to at least keep them neat while tying.

I tied my ankles first, with just enough slack to hobble around the house if need be, as he instructed. Next I tied a rope around my throat. Don’t worry, I kept it plenty loose as not to restrict air intake or to worry about choking myself. And lastly I tied my wrist, which proved to be the most difficult.

So here I am, typing this for everyone to see. Letting everyone know what kind of slut I am. Hoping to please my Master.

9 rules, 9 ways.

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Today my master formally assigned me rules. Most of them had been understood rules from the beginning but something about seeing them listed makes them more official.

There were nine of them. Nine rules to remind me that I belong to him. Nine rules that I was to write or type out and hang, prominently displayed for me to see often. I wrote them out, because that felt more personal to me. I made them colorful and pretty, or I thought so anyway.

The fun part came next. With the nine rules I was told to get nine toys, and after he picked out on for my bed, I was told to put the 8 others in different places around the house. I was to use each toy for 5 minutes and 5 minutes only, then movezb on to the next one. When I got to the last toy, the one he picked, I was allowed to cum but not before my 5 minutes was up.

I probably should’ve arranged the toys in a different order, but oh well, I made what I had work. The first toy was my biggest that I actually use located in my bathroom. I have trouble taking all of this toy without working myself up too it, so it was just kind of a tease for the first 5 minutes.

The second toy was a nipple pump, with rubber bands in my closet. This was a new toy, and I may have had too much fun with it, though I think it would take longer to get better results. It took me a bit to figure how it worked but I loved the feeling. But I generally enjoy my nipples being squeezed and pulled anyway.

The third toy was a g-spot vibe in my laundry room, though it needs batteries and I don’t really like it so I don’t use it much. The most interesting part of this was the cold tile floor, just a completely different sensation. I fucked myself with it for the 5 minutes and wasn’t really ready to stop when the timer went off.

The 4th toy was a clit stimulator/vibe on the kitchen cabinet. While vibration on my clit can easily and quickly bring me to an orgasm at any given time, the dirty feeling of being fucked on the kitchen cabinet really enhanced my arousal.

The 5th toy was where it really got interesting. It was a pink vibe, my favorite actually and it was on the kitchen table. I laid back across the kitchen table with my legs spread wide and fucked myself for the full 5 minutes. The way my house is designed anyone who came to the door could see me fucking myself on the kitchen table. Though no one came, I didn’t somewhat fantasize about being caught the whole time.

Next was the butt plug. Also a new toy that I bought with intentions of being able to wear it for longer times and maybe out in public. It was in my living room on top of a piece of furniture near the door. I probably got the least out of this 5 minutes as I didn’t have lube with it and I had to suck it and use my spit for lube. I did finally get it in, and fucked my ass with it a bit while bent over the furniture before the timer went off. I was disappointed that the timer went off so soon!

The 7th toy was a glass, candy came shaped dildo on the couch. The cold of the glass felt really good sliding in, and quickly warmed to body temperature. It felt good to get something back inside my sloppy wet pussy and this 5 minutes seemed to fly by.

The 8th toy was eggs in the living room floor facing the door. I’m not sure what they are actually called but they are intended to be inserted vaginally and can be worn for longer periods of time. Like the more common balls, but egg shaped. I slipped these in and laid back on the floor and spread my pussy and rubbed my clit. I found myself having to slow down a few times while doing this. I wanted to cum so bad and these 5 minutes seems to take for ever.

Then finally the last toy, a plain dido, in my bed and permission to cum. I laid back on the bed and pushed myself quickly to an edge and backed off just enough to keep myself there until I heard the timer. Several times I didn’t think I would make it but tried to avoid looking at the clock. As soon as I heard the timer I exploded with an intense much needed orgasm.

The whole time I fucked myself in various places around me house I thought of how it would feel to have my master fuck me in every room of the house. This made this task much more fun and exciting as I imaged him laying me across the table, or bending me over right in front of the door and fucking me.

Thank you Sir for providing me with such an arousing experience and allowing me to cum. You’re the bestest.

Punishment.

There are consequences for everything you do in life.  Sometimes we don’t acknowledge them as consequences, but everything you do lays the foundation for the future.  Sometimes the consequences are apparent, and sometimes they are implied.

If you have been following my blog then you may recall that I was given an assignment the other night that I did not complete on time.  I knew there would be punishment, and I actually looked forward to the punishment.  The biggest punishment was probably self-inflicted as I felt bad about disappointing my Sir.

I’be always been hard on myself.  I don’t like failing and I never half-ass do anything.  If something is worth my time, it is going to be done to the best I’ve my ability.  I like the satisfaction of completing something successfully.  This applies to every aspect of my daily life. My job, my hobbies, my relationships, everything.  So, needless to say, when I was unable to complete an assignment for my Sir, I was pretty bummed with myself.

He was honestly much more accepting, for lack of a better term, than I was.  Not to say there wasn’t consequences, but he was calm and percise.   He was almost comforting to me, as talking to him about it made me relax some and stop being so hard on myself.   But he told me I would have a punishment when I got home nonetheless.

The anticipation of a punishment was exciting.  I know punishments are supposed to be punishment, but I was looking forward to it.  Mostly because I have never been punished before.  I was excited for the experience and not for the actual punishment I guess. I didn’t know what to expect in a punishment, or what he would require from me.

The punishment seemed pretty simple:

1. I was to be naked, completely exposed until morning.

2. I was given a writing task that was meant to make me uncomfortable, maybe embarass me.

3. I was to sleep on the floor naked, no blankets with my hands bound.  I would have to earn the right to sleep in his bed again.

I was already close to naked anyway, as he requires my pussy and ass to be accessible at all times.  Basically I just had a shirt on at the time.  After removing the shirt I was told to get on cam for him.  I’m getting more comfortable being on cam for him, but still feel pretty exposed, and nervous.  After a little bit of talk I was instructed to get started on my writing assignment.

The writing assignment was a story that turned into a roleplay situation between him and I.  The subject, while out of my comfort zone, brought back memories of personal experiences.  This assignment, which was supposed to be embarrassing and uncomfortable all of a sudden felt more real.

I wrote this story, and I was turned on by it.  Maybe I shouldn’t have been, but I was.  My story became our story as we roleplayed through it, expanding on the scenario I had written.  This was hot, mentally and physically arousing.  We played out details of this story and in my mind I was there.  I felt like I was the character in the story mentally and physically.  This experience was new for me. It felt dirty. It felt wrong. But I liked it.

Lastly, I readied for bed.  Alone in the dark I was left to think.  I wrote him an email and thanked him for my punishment before tying my hands and settling in to my bed.  After thinking for a short while, I drifted off to sleep, and I slept hard.

I woke up a few hours later.  I was cold.  Freezing.  The parts of my body that weren’t numb hurt.  I tried to wake up a little better hoping to warm up.  It didn’t work.  I ended up safe wording and getting some blankets.  His intentions were never for me to freeze, but for me to feel exposed.  I stayed on the floor because I didnt deserve to sleep in his bed yet, but I needed some covers.

Before falling asleep again, I thought more.  Laying there with my wrist bound, on the floor, I thought.  I was a mix of emotions.  I was disappointed in myself for failing his assignment.  I was proud of myself for pursuing my desires to be a slave.  I was thankful.  Thankful that he gave me the opportunity to explore myself and my desires.  Thankful that he has given me a chance.  And I smiled before drifting back off to sleep.

Movie Night

I was given a task by my Sir to find 3 “movies” of different topics and report here why I picked them and what I liked about them. I was supposed to pick movies that pushed myself, things that may interest me but are out of my norm. I was to edge the entire time, but not allowed to cum. This, coupled with the fact some new toys I ordered came in today, was almost torture. I wanted to cum, and I wanted to use the new toys to cum. This was assigned to me last night to be completed before he awoke this morning.

Although this seems like a pretty simple assignment I found this very difficult. Maybe I’m picky, but the porn I found was really lacking. I had ideas in mind that I wanted to find and was unable to find anything that really fit the ideas I had in my head. I put about 5 hours into this. Considering this, I had very disappointing results.

I failed him on this task, the first time I’ve failed him. I’m sure it isn’t the last time, but I’m still disappointed in myself.

The first movie I picked was a mfm threesome. I picked this movie because I’d love to be trapped between 2 dicks. My holes being used for their pleasure. While the movie doesn’t exactly follow what my fantasy of this is, this is how I imagine it when I masturbate to this fantasy.

I love oral, I love a dick in my mouth, or pussy juices smeared across my face while my tongue is buried into some little bitches cunt. I’d love to have my Sir’s dick in my mouth, preferably starting soft/semi-soft so I can feel it harden in my mouth. Teasing it, licking it, sucking it. As I really get into it, where I’m moaning and squirming with his dick in my mouth and my ass in the air. Pussy and ass exposed. Someone comes behind me, sliding a finger or 2 first, and then a dick into my undoubtably wet pussy. I want to feel it slide in deep and slow, with them picking up speed until they are fucking me good and hard like the whore I am. I want them to fuck me hard enough that my Sir has to take control of my blow job, wrapping his hands in my hair and fucking my face. Using my mouth for his pleasure. I want to gag and drool.
Between 2 guys, both using me like the slut I am.

This movie also had some double penetration. I loved the way the girl looked with a dick in both holes. Full and satisfied. While watching it I fantasized what it would be like to have all my fuck hole filled. The thought of it is overwhelming. I’m not sure my body could take that much pleasure at once. This is something that will most likely always be a fictional fantasy and not something I ever do.

The 2nd movie I choose was a fmf threesome. I choose this one because I enjoy oral sex, as mentioned before. Having a dick to suck and a pussy to eat at the same time would be heaven. I’d love nothing more to be between her legs while she rides him reverse cowgirl, licking her clit and his dick, and sucking his balls.
After he shoots his load inside of her, I wish I was able to lick the cum from her wet pussy cleaning her up. Hopefully bringing her to another orgasm with my tongue.

The last movie I picked was boss/secretary type movie. I picked this one because something about being fucked in an office turns me on. To be on my knees under a desk, or just with my Sir’s dick in my mouth in an office. Knowing people are outside the closed door, or could be at any given moment. To have to bite my lip to keep myself quiet As he bends me over a desk and fucks me. To be used like the whore I am and sent back to work, with my sloppy pussy and/or ass leaking his cum down my legs because he forbids me wearing panties.

This assignment started last night and ended this morning. Though I’m not sure how “ended” it is considering I failed him. My pussy is wet and screaming for release. Today at work will be a constant reminder of the dirty whore I am. His whore.